It's Over

Do you know how much it hurts
To have to stand and watch.
Never allowed to join you there
Always hidden in the dark.

It cuts me deep with every inch
That divides us in the day
But in the night it's such a
Different story that I'm lost.

And I want you with me now,
To hold and love forever more,
But you're always distant with
Me in front of all your friends.

Every night you hold me close,
You're breathing matches mine,
Your heart beats as an echo,
And I hear your soft whispers.

My skin still tingles after
You touch it so lightly.
I wish you'd stay longer but
You're always gone come dawn.

Then the day starts all over,
Every day the same as last.
No matter what we do at night,
Your cold in the morning.

It's almost as though you're
Two different men to me.
One kind and one so mean,
Yet somehow they both wound.

I don't know which is worse,
It's like you're ashamed of me
Though at night you tell me
That that is not true.

You're words are sharp and
Painful all through the day.
And yet you soothe the wounds
At night with words of comfort.

I wish you were just one man,
That loved me every hour.
Holding me throughout the day
As though we'd never part.

Yet somehow I don't think that
You would ever do that, cause
You can't seem to understand
How much you mean to me.

So now I think this is the end,
The final phase for us.
Since you can't seem to bear my
Presence for all time.

KC - 14/7/05