Tuesday, February 13, 2007

Drabble (186 Words)

One day, just one day to forget everything. If we wiped our minds and pretended nothing had happened, where would we be? There’s this person. Alright I’ll be frank and say that this person is more than that to me, but for the purposes of this I suppose just calling them a person would be safer. So they mean…everything to me.

That sounds so corny, I’ll start again. They’ve become so much to me that no matter what I do, somehow I always wind up thinking about them.

That still sounds corny. All those stupid stories of love and perfection aren’t always stories but right now I’m feeling as though it is. Where does that leave me though?

So they don’t believe in love. Or well they probably do but they have no intention of considering that it’s anything important or …well I suppose they don’t think they’ll find it.

With that said…I’ve run out of things to say…what happens to the person who has fallen in love with someone who doesn’t believe in or trust in the power of love? Where does that person go?

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Drabble (245 words)

She jumped up and started cheering, she'd finally figured out the right coding to get the task done. Happy and cheerful she forgot that her girlfriend was home and in the next room and ran outside whooping and cheering.

The moment she saw her girlfriend she stopped and blushed a deep red from embarrassment as her girlfriend just looked at her with a smile and confused look on her face.

"It's...nothing. I just...kinda forgot you were home," she said. She ducked her head and went back into her room, cursing herself over and over again. How could I forget that my girlfriend was here, not only that, now she knows I'm a dork!

Sighing, she sat down at her desk and stared at the screen, the recent joy forgotten in the light of this new development. Her girlfriend walked in and turner her around.

"Sweetie?" she said, trying to look into her lover's eyes.

"Baby, you have to understand, I love you for everything you are and because of everything you do, don't hide it from me? Don't hide from me?" she asked quietly.

Her girlfriend's last question was said so softly that it was almost lost in the room but it she heard it and lifted her head up to meet her girlfriend's face.

The smile that lit her face made them smile at each other before eyes started flickering to lips and they sealed the moment with a kiss.

It was a promise...


Ray said I had to post it up...

Sunday, February 04, 2007

The Joys of Making Up (Part 3)

final part then...


Title: The Joys of Making Up (Part 3)

Rating: R (it could probably be passed off as PG-13)

Summary: Someone leaves, another one leaves, and then they meet again (though not where most people meet) I supposed you could call it a continuation of Del/Senna. Goldie also told me that I wasn’t allowed to kill Del, so it’s going to have a happier ending.

Feedback: it’s not like most people give it anyway, but if you can be bothered thank you ever so much…

Warnings: it’s FemSlash (f/f) so if you don’t like those pairings, don’t read it.


“Senna, wait! Please!” I yelled. She just kept running and we headed into the woods that were near the town. I normally went here when I needed time to think or just time to relax. I knew them like the back of my hand. I knew that the ground was covered in brown leaves that were almost close to black. I knew that there were rocks around the path that were covered in moss that was so green and soft that I sometimes wondered if maybe it was how carpet was first decided upon.

I also knew that past that rock there was a huge tree that could have three people hugging it just to surround it. And I knew that the track that she was currently running on ended at the river and that the river was somewhat deep and extremely cold.

As she ignored my calls again, I could hear the sound of water running and knew that we were close. I didn’t want her to fall in, but I knew that if she did, I wouldn’t even hesitate to jump in after her.

“Senna, wait! I beg you! Just hear me out!” I yelled. My voice was dying. I could feel it slipping away and I briefly wondered how I was going to talk to her if I couldn’t talk at all.

“Stop! It’s a river!” I screamed. Finally stopping in front of me she turned around and by the moonlight I could see that she had been crying badly.

“Senna…”

“What?” she interrupted. Her tone was harsh and I winced without meaning to. She seemed to hesitate then but seemed to decide I wasn’t worth opening up to and forgiving.

“Hilary’s an ex,” I said.

“So it’s Hilary now?” she asked bitterly.

“Baby…”

“I told you! You have no right to call me that,” she interrupted again. My heart was tearing in half but I nodded and swallowed my pain. I just needed her to understand the situation; she could make her own decisions.

“We went out for a while but I couldn’t get over you, she was my first mistake,” I said.

“First? Does that mean there are others?”

“Just one other and we’re still friends,” I said.

“Just friends or fuck buddies?” she asked harshly.

“Senna…”

“Is this what was on your mind this morning? You know what…I can’t do this right now… I just need some time. I’m just going to get my stuff and move into the hotel,” she said. Her voice trailed away into a whisper.

“Don’t,” I said. She looked at me questioningly and for a moment I could have sworn I saw her heart breaking.

“Just stay at my place, Hilary sort of owns the hotel. I won’t go home tonight, just please, please don’t leave the house, I don’t want you to get hurt,” I explained.

“I think it’s a little too late for that,” she said wryly but nodded her acquiesce and took my keys.

“Can you take me back? I’m not all that certain where we are,” she said. I nodded and we walked back in silence. I tried not to look at her, knowing that I didn’t have the right to, not unless she let me.

As we entered the house she turned to me and spoke, “I’m sorry about tonight. I just…need some time to figure this all out. I don’t know if I can do this. Not again.”

“I just need to go get some stuff. It doesn’t matter where I go, just…call me if you need me, I’ll have my phone with me,” I said.

“What’s your number?”

“I never changed it,” I replied, “I thought that if you ever tried to call, that you’d be able to.”

She looked away from me and I went into the bedroom and packed an overnight bag. I figured I might as well go to Amber’s place. I sighed. Amber was my best friend here; she was also my other ex. Figuring that there was no other place I could stay anyway I called Amber and arranged for me to stay there for a few days.

I didn’t even see her on the way out and I held in all my pain and all the tears as I walked to my ex girlfriend’s house. Albeit the friendlier one. The moment Amber opened the door, I burst into tears and she just held me as I cried until there was nothing else to cry about. Amber had deserved so much better than me. I wasn’t even in the relationship and she was so caring that I knew that she needed someone whose heart would belong to her alone.

“What happened?” she asked gently. We had moved into her living room and I was curled into her side. There was silence for a while but Amber just waited until I had found the right way to begin before I started telling her about the last few days. She was silent as I went over everything, minus the more intimate details.

She finally just told me to go up and sleep because she was going to paint tonight. I nodded and went upstairs, going through the nightly rituals before falling asleep with Senna still on my mind.

A hand was running through my hair and I figured I was still sleeping. The faint scent of Senna hung in the air and though I was tempted to check, I was afraid that opening my eyes would make it disappear.

“Morning,” whispered the Senna into my ear.

I kept my eyes closed and committed it to memory. As far as I was concerned, she didn’t even want to be anywhere near me ever again, and I was liable to agree with her.

Del…” she whispered again. I bit my lip and hoped that she’d stop doing that. To be honest it was turning me on.

“Please baby? Open your eyes?” she begged. I considered ignoring her, but my entire being was rebelling against that thought and so I opened my eyes.

I lost myself in her eyes. I forgot everything, the fight, where I was, I even forgot to breathe for a moment. Then reality came crashing into my life again and I wondered if I’d taken this a step too far.

“D-did you n-need s-s-s-something?” I asked. I was so nervous and so afraid that I was stuttering. She frowned and I wonder if I said something wrong again. I hadn’t felt this self conscious in years; I thought I had gotten over it by now.

Del…sweetie…” she trailed off and I looked at her questioningly. If she was here to break it off officially she wouldn’t touch me…right?

I closed my eyes again and started muttering to myself and repeating dream out loud over and over. She hadn’t called me sweetie in years. There was no way she would start now, no matter what had happened to bring her here. It didn’t matter how much I wanted it to happen, this was definitely a dream. It’s the only logical explanation.

There was the sound of her getting up and the door opening and closing. I couldn’t help the tear that came out. Even in my dreams she didn’t want to stay.

The next thing I felt were lips on my cheek, brushing away the tear and its consequent trail. Those lips gently followed the trail back to my eye before kissing that lightly. The entire time that she moved I felt like my heart had stopped beating.

“Sweetie, we need to talk,” she said.

I held my breath and nodded slightly. She sighed and somehow I knew that she was frowning.

“I’m sorry for doubting you,” she started, “It’s just that I never dated. I felt like I was cheating every time I even looked at another woman. Is it stupid of me to think I’m cheating when I’m technically not even yours anymore?”

She laughed at herself and I had to open my eyes. I didn’t want to see her hurting but I knew that if she was I had to stop it.

“Baby…” I started, then flinched when I realised what I’d said.

“Let me finish?” she asked. Her voice was small and I wanted to run to her and hold her, just hold her in my arms, but I waited in silence for her to continue.

“The thing is, when they told me I was accepted, I had seriously thought it’d never happen to me. I had been so surprised that I really didn’t know how to react. Then you told me to go and I just thought maybe you’d grown tired of me and wanted the excuse. You stopped telling me you loved me everyday…I didn’t know what to think.”

Her voice broke off and I couldn’t hold back any longer. I just got out of bed and walked the one step towards her and held her. She clutched onto me as if there was no tomorrow. We stood there and I did my best to convey how much I loved her just through my touch. After a while she continued speaking albeit into my neck.

“You never tried to call, and I had tried calling you so many times, but I just couldn’t do it. The job wasn’t as great as it seemed. Every single time I went over something, I’d think of you and lose concentration. I couldn’t walk into that building without thinking of you at least once, so I gave up and quit. When I came back here, Marie and Erica said you’d already gone…so I figured you’d moved on and I tried to move on…but I didn’t get very far. I’ve changed about fifty jobs trying to find one that didn’t remind me of you every few seconds and then I find one that seems alright, and the second thing I need to do brings me right back into your arms.”

She laughed at herself but it turned into a gentle sobbing.

“Baby,” I sighed. She didn’t do anything to acknowledge that she’d heard me but somehow I just knew she had.

“I love you. I always have loved you. I’m sorry if I didn’t tell you enough, because I thought you knew and I felt that love with every single breath I took in every day that I was with you,” I said. She clutched at me tighter and I kissed the top of her head.

“I love you” she said into my neck. I laughed. She looked at me, partly confused and partly hurt.

“My neck appreciates it,” I said jokingly.

She smiled and kissed me. In between kisses she managed to say, “I love you.”

She rested her head on my shoulder and we just held each other, revelling in the feeling of just being close together again.

“We still have a lot to talk through,” I said. She nodded in response.

“Are you going to try?” I asked lightly. She looked into my eyes.

“Sweetie, I would do a whole lot more than try,” she replied. I felt relieved that she saw through my façade if not a little nervous. I had so many secrets, so many insecurities, but maybe we could work it through together.

There was hope then, there was always hope.

Saturday, February 03, 2007

The Joys of Making Up (Part 2)

It’s a very short update…to appease Goldie…and Ray hehe


Title: The Joys of Making Up (Part 2)

Rating: R (for bad bad thoughts…)

Summary: Someone leaves, another one leaves, and then they meet again (though not where most people meet) I supposed you could call it a continuation of Del/Senna. Goldie also told me that I wasn’t allowed to kill Del, so it’s going to have a happier ending.

Feedback: yes please “smiles”

Warnings: it’s FemSlash (f/f) so if you don’t like those pairings, don’t read it.


I woke up to the sun in my eyes. Considering the window faced west it wasn’t comforting to me. I had entire projects I needed to finish today. Looking down at the woman entwined with me I couldn’t help but relax slightly. She always seemed to manage to calm me down, even if she didn’t know it.

“Morning,” she muttered. I was still stroking her hair and I wondered how I had managed to live so long without her in my arms. The feeling of contentment that filled my entire being made me determined to keep her this time, regardless of how selfish it seemed.

She turned and looked at me, resting her chin on my chest.

“What’s wrong?” she asked me. Her smile faded and a look of worry passed over her face.

“Nothing,” I replied, wondering how she could possibly see through me like that.

“Liar.”

“I’ve just got a lot on my mind,” I said.

“Care to share?”

“Maybe later, right now I have to work.” I regretted leaving, but the projects wouldn’t wait and in all honesty, I needed the money. Pulling away from her and getting dressed, she sat up and watched me from the bed.

“Why do you always do that?” she asked. I looked at her but her face was merely curious.

“Do what?”

“Leave when I want to talk it through,” she replied. Her arms were crossed under her breasts and the fact that she was naked didn’t help my concentration levels. If I wasn’t so determined to work and finish off those projects I would have seriously considered jumping into bed with her again.

“I have projects to work on,” I said, shrugging slightly. I felt sort of sticky from last night’s activities but not uncomfortably so. Knowing me, I’d probably work up another sweat just doing the projects so I saw no reason to shower. My mind turned to more practical things and I grabbed my tool kit off the ground and was headed out the door before I had even registered that I was still talking to Senna.

I turned around and walked back into my room, dropped the tool kit by the door, and then planted a hot, sweet and entirely too short kiss onto her lips. Her surprised face was even more surprised when I stood up and headed back outside again, taking my tool kit along with me.

“Oh no, no way are you doing that and then leaving,” she said, coming out of her haze. I merely smirked at her before shutting the door behind me and making my way to my workshop.

Five hours later I had managed to sort out a few of the projects and done the next step in most of them. Most of them only needed a layer of lacquer. After that I was going to have to dry it off for a few days before packaging it and sending it out to whoever had requested it. It was when I had one more project left, this one still in the beginning stages of sanding and gluing that she came into the workshop.

I looked up at the noise to see her standing there sipping a glass of juice. For some reason I couldn’t stand the taste of water unless I was so thirsty I’d drink anything. For that reason I left a bar fridge in my workshop so that I didn’t have to dirty the house just for a drink.

“Hey,” she said, watching me work. I bit my lip and proceeded to keep working. I had forgone music today for the sole purpose of being able to hear her if she came in.

“I was wondering when you’d find your way down here,” I said. My shirt was already stuck to my back, I had been sanding for a good while now.

“I needed a shower,” she said simply. The thought of her in the shower alone was enough to raise the temperature and I felt my ears burning in response. My mind was entirely too dirty for my own good.

“So, I was wondering if you’d like to go out when you’re done,” she said. Though she seemed composed and her stance didn’t suggest otherwise, the moment I looked at her I knew exactly how nervous she was. Her eyes were still stuck on the wood I was working on and her hands were gripping the cup as though it would save her when the bad news came.

I frowned. Did she really think I would say no after last night? I stopped working and walked towards her. Her eyes stayed focussed on the box I had been making. I stood in front of her and reached up to touch her face, gently turning her head so that I could meet her eyes.

“Baby,” I whispered softly. She looked at me and I saw her lip tremble. I hadn’t called her baby in so long.

“Do you really think I’d say no?” I asked gently.

“No?” she said lightly, but the tears in her eyes betrayed her. I couldn’t resist her allure and just hugged her tight, holding her in my arms.

“Baby, I could never say no to you,” I whispered into her ear. She just started crying and I held her as she soaked my shirt with her tears.

“I’m sorry,” she finally said. She pulled back and refused to look me in the eye.

“Baby, if you’re going to date me, you have every right to do that. Though I’d rather if you didn’t, I kind of get confused when you do that and panic heaps,” I said. She laughed and I felt like the world made sense and everything was perfect.

For a moment we just stayed that way, and I felt content just holding her in my arms as we stood in the doorway of my workshop.

“Does that mean you’ll go out with me?” she finally asked.

I couldn’t help but laugh.

“Yea, it’s a date,” I said, winking at her. She smiled and kissed me lightly.

“I do believe you’re supposed to do that after the date,” I commented.

“I just thought you might want it early, but if you’d rather I not…”

“No way,” I said. I pulled her in for another kiss, this one lingering slightly.

“I need to get back to work, but I’m going to consider this a date. I’ll see you later, wear anything you want,” I said, bowing slightly and staying bowed.

“Does this ‘anything’ include nothing?” she whispered teasingly in my ear. I had to gulp to resist the temptation to ravage her. Her breath was hot against my cheek and I closed my eyes to savour the feeling.

“See you tonight,” she said and then disappeared before I had a chance to open my eyes.

Sighing in defeat I returned to my work, turning on my music to get her out of my mind, except it was so much easier to concentrate when we weren’t together. Mentally shaking my head to clear it I started sanding the side of the box, a stupid smile permanently fixed on my face.

Finally finishing off the final few shelves, I stuck them down and then held them with a clamp. Wiping my face on the towel I kept here, I sighed happily and started making my way upstairs. It was a good day’s work today.

Checking the time, I figured I should probably get dressed for dinner tonight, it was already almost seven. Humming a light tune I picked out an outfit and then went into the shower. It was satisfying to watch the water turn a little black from all the grime I had picked up from the day.

Dressed and ready, I went out of the bathroom and went back into my bedroom, to grab my wallet and keys. I was admittedly slightly masculine in my refusal to use a purse. Curious as to where she had hidden herself I wandered downstairs and into the living room.

Senna was curled up on the sofa and sleeping. She was dressed in a short black dress that seemed to hug her frame and I had to remind myself not to drool. Sitting next to her I tucked some stray hairs behind her ear and kissed her forehead gently. She mumbled in her sleep and opened her eyes a little.

“Are you ready?” she asked sleepily. She rubbed her eyes to get rid of the last traces of sleep and I couldn’t help but smile at how cute she was.

“Ready and waiting,” I replied. She nodded and sat up, looking at me properly for the first time. I watched her eyes darken and briefly wondered if we’d actually make it outside for our date.

“You look…good” she said, gulping in the middle of the sentence.

“You look better,” I said smirking. She looked into my eyes and I had to gulp as I saw the fire burning in her eyes.

“We should probably go to the restaurant,” I squeaked out. She smiled and nodded. She knew exactly what she was doing to me and loving every minute of it.

It was a fairly short walk to the restaurant. Everywhere was within walking distance of everything else. It only took twenty minutes to walk all the way around the town, but it meant that the restaurant was pretty much run on friendship basis. It also meant that I’d probably see half my friends in the place.

Opening the door for Senna, I let her walk in first before walking in behind her. Silence reigned when she walked in and the moment I walked in the whispers started. I figured that if I was going to date her, I should probably introduce her to everyone.

“Hey everyone, this is Senna,” I shouted out. They all looked at me and there was a second of silence as they all registered the information and realised exactly who she was. The response was mixed. There were some that were happy that I had her here, and from the looks of it, back again, but there were those that thought she’d hurt me again and didn’t want her anywhere near me.

Senna looked at me questioningly, she really didn’t want everyone looking at her, and with some of the glares that were directed at her she was feeling extremely uneasy. I kissed her gently and took her mind away from it. When we broke the kiss, I stared into her eyes and begged her to trust me. She smiled slightly in return and looked down, blushing, she never was one for public displays of affection.

When I looked around, people who had been disapproving or sitting on the fence just nodded their acceptance. We were together and I was happy, that was all they needed to know. However I didn’t notice Hilary walking towards me from a corner of the restaurant. Unlike other people she seemed to live off hated looks and thrived under their attention.

“So who’s the slut?” she asked in her sickeningly sweet voice.

“Do you mind? I’m trying to spend the evening with my girlfriend,” I replied. My voice was as neutral as I could make it, but Senna must have sensed how angry and annoyed I was because she threaded her hand into mine. Her touch calmed me down almost instantly.

“Ah right, you did say her name was Senna,” she continued without even heeding my warning. The way she said Senna made me want to pummel her into the ground and scream that she had no right to ever say that name again. Yet Senna’s hand in mine stopped me from even responding to the comment.

“I don’t know who you are but I would seriously consider leaving,” said Senna. I looked at her and I could see her possessive streak coming out. I had asked her about it once and she has simply replied with ‘nobody messes with my girl’.

I couldn’t help the grin that crept onto my face. Hilary was nothing compared to us and I seriously considered just walking away with Senna. Dinner was overrated.

“Senna, you might not know much, but know that when this night is over, she’s going to end up in my bed again,” laughed Hilary. Senna’s smile was gone and her brows furrowed in confusion.

“Again?” she asked, letting go of my hand, “What does she mean by again?”

“Baby…”

“No, tell me what she means,” she demanded.

“It was when we were apart,” I replied.

“Funny, she made it seem a whole lot like you were still together then.”

“Baby…”

“No! You have no right to call me that anymore,” yelled Senna. With that she turned and left the restaurant. I glared once at the smirking Hilary before running out after her.