Despair

I'm not supposed to love you,
I know it through and through.
Yet when you stand beside me,
I know not love so true.

I cannot lie to you tonight,
Though it seems right to do.
Yet not a sound I make at all,
My tongue is tied by you.

My mind is up in turmoil,
My heart is caught in love.
I'm praying ever day and night
For help from up above.

I walk into your arms now,
As though I'm hypnotised.
You cast a spell that pulls me in,
And bid me close my eyes.

You capture me in essence,
I'm lost within you here.
Suddenly it's cold again,
And I can feel a tear.

It slides towards my mouth,
I lick it with my tongue.
A salty taste that fills,
Just as more tears come.

I wish you didn't love her,
I wish you loved me more.
But sometimes all my wishes,
Are dreams that leave me sore.

My heart still aches for you,
I still see dreams at night.
That's why I stand at wall's edge
Losing without a fight.

KC - 8/7/05
Title thanks to Diana